Jenny Yun

Going into this Missions trip I was really scared because I was struggling with the question of predestination. I did not understand why some people were so privileged to know and believe in God and why some people were passed over. For the longest time I could not pray because the whole situation seemed so hopeless. It was really difficult for me to believe that there could be a revival in Japan. I thought how can there be a revival in Japan when not everyone is going to be saved. I was and still am so thankful that God saved me and gave me the chance to experience his incredible love but my heart broke every time I thought of those people in Japan who would never experience his love.
The whole time I kept on having doubts that God could love everyone. I kept on limiting his love for the people in Japan. As I was having these doubts our team went to the Kyoto Temples: the Shinto and the Buddhist temple. I remember seeing people of all ages. I remember seeing these two boys with their mother and my heart just went out to them because I had so much hope. I had hope because they were so young, they had more chances to change and hear about the Gospel. I prayed that as they grow up God would place Christians in their lives to minister to them and tell them about Jesus.
However, right after I saw the two boys I saw this elderly woman praying to the idols in the Shinto Temple and my heart broke. It broke because I could not see how she can be changed. She was so old and set in her ways, it seemed impossible for her to change. Then God spoke to me and reminded me that he can take away anyone’s life but He chooses to keep everyone alive. Then I realized that by keeping everyone alive from the youngest to the oldest person in Japan, God is giving everyone second chances. He is graciously keeping everyone alive because that is just how much he wants them to go to him. Even if there is that 0.1% chance of the person believing, God is willing to wait for that person. God is the God of the impossible. Through his all things are possible.
I still do not understand many things and my struggle with predestination is not completely gone but through this it helped me to see God’s heart for his people just a little bit more. Also how much he is willing to wait for each and every single person.

Matthew 19:26 “With man this is impossible but with God all things are possible.”